Say Yes

Today was a good one. I met Brandon, the brother of an old schoolmate of mine. He's 20, and just moved back from Texas. He's quite tall, and quite cool as well.

I, along with my dear Chris, Myriah, and Brandon, went to Fort Macon for the early evening. It wasn't nearly as interesting as it usually is, and I'm not quite sure why, but it was fun nonetheless. In the end, we were escorted out by a ranger of sorts. He was a moron. He got mad at Chris for moving a door. He reminded us with a smirk, "You shouldn't touch what doesn't belong to you." I thought about jumping off of his grass, apologizing for touching it, and then assuring him that I would learn to fly so that I'd never have to touch his precious trappings again. I didn't, though.

Okay, I'm sorry, but Chris and I would make an extremely hott couple, damnit.

In life, there are two possibilities for everything. You can do something, or you can do nothing. In most cases, doing something is recommended, but you must be aware that when you do something, you engage your interests in it, and there is a chance of failure and hurt. If what you were working towards fails, you'll have two more possibilities. You can either let it go, or you can keep fighting and do your best to regain what life there once was. The trick is knowing when you should fight, and when you should just give up.

I'm not very good at letting things go. Especially after I've allowed my heart to be involved. I'm not sure if this is a good or bad characteristic.

I just stumbled upon this song as I was searching through the music on my computer... This is part of Say Yes by Elliot Smith.

It's always been wait and see
A happy day and then you pay
And feel like shit the morning after
But now I feel changed around
And instead of falling down
I'm standing up the morning after

Situations get fucked up
And turned around sooner or later

And I could be another fool
Or an exception to the rule
You tell me the morning after
Crooked spin can't come to rest
I'm damaged bad at best
He'll decide what he wants
I'll probably be the last to know
No one says until it shows
See how it is
They want you or they don't
Say yes

I like finding songs that fit my current situations. This one is hopeful, and yet wistful at the same time. I just wish I had more hopefulness than wistfulness right now...

You're awesome for reading this.