So, I know I've mentioned some slight intimacy/commitment issues before... I'm working on getting over them. Which is good, seeing as I am actually dating someone now.
This guy is amazing. He adores me. He's the sweetest young man that I know. The only problems I'm seeing so far involve him liking me maybe too much too soon. How often does this happen? Ha.
Right now, I'm doing my best to not get scared away by the fact that I have someone worth liking who really likes me back. It's difficult. I don't know why. Maybe because of all of the shit I've gone through with these stupid boys? That seems like a good explanation.
I am kind of scared, though. I really don't want to end up flaking out and hurting him. At all. I respect and like him too much for that. He's too good for that.
Since the night we started hanging out, not a day has gone by when we haven't spent some amount of time together. That is kind of odd for me. I'm good about being around the same person everyday, but there are usually at least small breaks... We got back to Jacksonville around 7:30am on Thursday, then he left directly for Winston-Salem, and just got back tonight. I met him at the Waffle Shoppe tonight. So... There was about a day's worth of a break there. It was good to just sit around and get some stuff done, but I will admit that I did miss him.
He brought me back a long-stemmed, red rose, an adorable hat, and a Norma Jean poster signed by the whole band. How sweet is that?
Today, I was walking through Belk when I saw the cologne he wears. Happy for men. I sprayed some on a card... It just didn't smell like him... But, then, I held it in the hand that had a touch of cigarette smoke on it, and BAM! Mike's smell. Right there. It made me smile.
When we cuddle and watch movies, it's the greatest feeling.
I am happy.
I hope things continue to go well.
