Sex, Drugs, and Rock 'n' Roll

Man. Popularity and peer pressure and all of that crap sucks so badly. I hate it.

It really bothers me how sex, drugs, and rock 'n' roll alcohol are so insanely available and popular and loved throughout the masses. It makes me feel like I don't fit in when the rest of the kids are partying and drinking the night away, but I still wouldn't want to be a part of it.

I have mixed feelings about the whole ordeal, really, and that's what I hate the most. People make it look so good, but at the same time, I know the consequences, and I know it isn't good forever. I don't have a problem with being myself regardless of what other people think, but I am human, so I'm bound to want to fit in. It seems like just about everyone my age (that I know in person, and excepting a few people who just happen to be homeschooled) is either partying every weekend and having a blast, or they're "losers" who do their best to fit in and be a part of the crowd and end up just being miserable anyway. There are so few people who are "normal" and yet like me at the same time... It is so frustrating.

My dream life? Living someplace where I have the world at my fingertips, can be self-sufficient and unique, and can just have my own little life and lifestyle.

I guess this is just one of those down parts to being a teenager/young adult. Maybe by the time I'm 64 or so I'll be able to not party and still be cool.

Ahhh. Who cares?